My partner has moved across the country. The distance and days have begun to warp the desire I used to feel for him. I barely have any contact with men. I live, work, and study almost exclusively with women. I know that men find me attractive. Recently the attentions of strangers have made me queasy with equal parts lust and anxiety. I’ve done too good a job of boxing up my sexuality while my love is away. I want to let it out.