The Sex Experiment | Sahil | Friends Activity http://www.thesexexperiment.com/members/virusfound42/activity/friends/ Activity feed for Sahil's friends. Tue, 02 Jun 2026 18:35:43 +0000 https://buddypress.org/?v= en-US 30 hourly 2 e847e412c1b4c558a48177cbebd7bbd9 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22991/#acomment-23003 Sun, 18 Sep 2022 13:42:58 +0000
We will have to “dare” you to do something about that! Even if it is just a little baby step.
    In reply to - Holly posted an update in the group Your Fantasies My wrist buzzes. Without cognitive thought, I push the button. Return to sleep. My wrist buzzes again. And with this begins the dance of the beginning of a new week. I stumble down to the kitchen to start the coffee that I will need if I am to have any hope. As I am engaged in my robotic morning motions my mind wanders. These shorts. Larger than my size with fabric that is as thin as I can find. They’re so ugly. Why do I wear these? Oh, yeah. They’re as close as I have found to feeling naked as I sleep. Oh those days of only wearing clothes when necessary when I’m in the mood to not wear clothes. Another night passed. Another weekend. Feeling less than attractive. Feeling unfulfilled. Living a life in my brain that once was my reality. My robotic movements take me through the packing of a lunch, getting everyone headed for the door. Once finally alone, I undress. Standing in the anteroom of my bathroom and look in the mirrors surrounding me. Still existing in my brain. Thoughts heading down well-worn paths. Plenty would look at this hidden view with longing and hunger. Would want to consume me. I remember that nervous feeling of the increase in my breath, nervous but excited shiver of my body. Feeling so sexy and empowered as being the object of lust and the pathway for another’s attainment of their desire. To serve and surprise. To go further than they expected or hoped. To do things others might not. To be a lingering thought in their mind. Alas, I shuffle to the mirror to begin the process of transforming to a mundane corporate professional. My thoughts acknowledging that the only thing longing for me this morning is the computer with it’s never-ending e-mails and video conferences. My desired service to fix the problems of others. The relief I provide that of resolving problems. ]]>         8e16e7127b024e10c9edbd9960013943 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22991/#acomment-22996 Sat, 10 Sep 2022 10:51:05 +0000
    I remember a time, not so distant, when conferences are for real, in different cities, with different people waiting to be approached and discovered, when we are free to dress differently, act out a fantasy, and simply let that other part of us out to live, however briefly.
      In reply to - Holly posted an update in the group Your Fantasies My wrist buzzes. Without cognitive thought, I push the button. Return to sleep. My wrist buzzes again. And with this begins the dance of the beginning of a new week. I stumble down to the kitchen to start the coffee that I will need if I am to have any hope. As I am engaged in my robotic morning motions my mind wanders. These shorts. Larger than my size with fabric that is as thin as I can find. They’re so ugly. Why do I wear these? Oh, yeah. They’re as close as I have found to feeling naked as I sleep. Oh those days of only wearing clothes when necessary when I’m in the mood to not wear clothes. Another night passed. Another weekend. Feeling less than attractive. Feeling unfulfilled. Living a life in my brain that once was my reality. My robotic movements take me through the packing of a lunch, getting everyone headed for the door. Once finally alone, I undress. Standing in the anteroom of my bathroom and look in the mirrors surrounding me. Still existing in my brain. Thoughts heading down well-worn paths. Plenty would look at this hidden view with longing and hunger. Would want to consume me. I remember that nervous feeling of the increase in my breath, nervous but excited shiver of my body. Feeling so sexy and empowered as being the object of lust and the pathway for another’s attainment of their desire. To serve and surprise. To go further than they expected or hoped. To do things others might not. To be a lingering thought in their mind. Alas, I shuffle to the mirror to begin the process of transforming to a mundane corporate professional. My thoughts acknowledging that the only thing longing for me this morning is the computer with it’s never-ending e-mails and video conferences. My desired service to fix the problems of others. The relief I provide that of resolving problems. ]]>             0520eca183ad140bca097d3ec7d08ff0 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22985/#acomment-22989 Wed, 24 Aug 2022 10:11:15 +0000
      Keep asking, keep thinking, keep wanting. Only then, will you find the way.
        In reply to - Holly posted an update in the group Your Fantasies As the rain falls, I recline in deep thoughts regarding the time at which we will be in another country. When the breeze will play over our bodies from the balcony with the waves gentle ebb and flow upon the sand below. Can we rediscover what we once enjoyed? Before careers took over. And parenting? And Covid? Can we enjoy each other? In a warm embrace? Can I taste you again? Can I long for you again? Can I lose my breath with you again? Despite all the bruises we have had? I love you and miss that stranger that is erotic. That swept our bodies, but more importantly our minds. ]]>                 0cbe485183e4c66bcb2111c22dbbe55a Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22985/#acomment-22988 Wed, 24 Aug 2022 10:10:02 +0000
        Holly, this is beautiful, poignant, and sadly common. You ask the greatest questions, to which few of us have the answers. How do we share a lifetime of managing life together and still have the raw desire to pursue and discover each other? How do you chase someone you “have?” How do you see someone you’ve been with forever, with new eyes?
          In reply to - Holly posted an update in the group Your Fantasies As the rain falls, I recline in deep thoughts regarding the time at which we will be in another country. When the breeze will play over our bodies from the balcony with the waves gentle ebb and flow upon the sand below. Can we rediscover what we once enjoyed? Before careers took over. And parenting? And Covid? Can we enjoy each other? In a warm embrace? Can I taste you again? Can I long for you again? Can I lose my breath with you again? Despite all the bruises we have had? I love you and miss that stranger that is erotic. That swept our bodies, but more importantly our minds. ]]>                     57b893e80e4d371de6860b24ab05dd06 MrsM posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22950/#acomment-22951 Wed, 11 Aug 2021 18:34:55 +0000
          Hmm one pic didn’t work
            In reply to - MrsM posted an update Just checking in to see if anything is new … ☹️ - not much posted … When we can we try to hike naked - usually resulting in some public nature sex [bpfb_images] 1666_0-01904600-1628706833_bb641c66-daf9-4ee8-b504-8518bd5f1f8c.jpeg 1666_0-58695200-1628706833_dc182bde-ec93-4162-b505-8f6297419151.jpeg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         6ff137c1e5c7b375edd86ad56834de20 MrsM posted an update: Just checking in to see if anything is new … ☹️ - not much p […] http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22950/ Wed, 11 Aug 2021 18:33:53 +0000 Just checking in to see if anything is new … ☹️ – not much posted …

            When we can we try to hike naked – usually resulting in some public nature sex
            ]]>             1             647be265412226c7205b50c0aef48219 Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Collaborations: ADAM- Am I Just the Night, or Am I Her Morning And just […] http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22776/ Fri, 27 Sep 2019 14:57:09 +0000 ADAM- Am I Just the Night, or Am I Her Morning

            And just like that, our secret reduces to just my own, alone. I sit down for the fifth week, and the bartender looks at me with fringes of pity around his eyes while he pours the red wine into my glass. I ask myself again, how I got here, knowing in actuality so little about her, and yet consumed…[Read more]

            ]]>             0             b484c3f1131df5555eded6aad733b745 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22629/#acomment-22641 Mon, 18 Feb 2019 19:59:39 +0000 If I post of me, it would be in Photo Orgy. And you would have to gain privilege access to the very selective, private group :=)

            In reply to - Erostaticus posted an update in the group Erotic Photos Couldn\'t resist this one. I love womanly curves and a string teaser. Mmmm! [bpfb_images] 2666_0-78053000-1550503997_3.jpg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         614951710b0b22e71cc27c9e7b21c6a8 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22626/#acomment-22635 Mon, 18 Feb 2019 19:47:01 +0000 LOVE tongue on tongue!

            In reply to - Erostaticus posted an update in the group Erotic Photos The wonderful sensuousness of sapphic love. [bpfb_images] 2666_0-47824300-1550465639_rh6sm0pv-15.jpg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         b8da36325b9e1e9081d915227cf03474 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22624/#acomment-22634 Mon, 18 Feb 2019 19:46:35 +0000 Wow, how old /young do you think she is?

            In reply to - Erostaticus posted an update in the group Erotic Photos A gorgeous mature woman with a sexy and seductive look ... I bet she knows how to handle her man. WHOAAA ! [bpfb_images] 2666_0-15815100-1550457734_p8.jpg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         c6a772b2898ec5afc2484baa8244700a Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22629/#acomment-22633 Mon, 18 Feb 2019 19:44:58 +0000 Very nice bikini bottom! I would wear that.

            In reply to - Erostaticus posted an update in the group Erotic Photos Couldn\'t resist this one. I love womanly curves and a string teaser. Mmmm! [bpfb_images] 2666_0-78053000-1550503997_3.jpg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         eda19b64555c8cc7600070086b069300 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22480/#acomment-22484 Tue, 06 Nov 2018 11:31:02 +0000 We might have to start DARING you to get you started on fulfilling this fantasy.

            In reply to - Sophie posted an update in the group Your Fantasies A fantasy? Perhaps; certainly a recurring dream that wakes me at least twice a week. [bpfb_images] 2607_0-84000000-1541452344_images.jpeg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         24fa5430b383cea0fdc5e6abb227dfc1 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22480/#acomment-22481 Tue, 06 Nov 2018 02:58:38 +0000 Is the fantasy the daring woman or you as the daring exhibitionist? Or… as owner of the cute dog?

            In reply to - Sophie posted an update in the group Your Fantasies A fantasy? Perhaps; certainly a recurring dream that wakes me at least twice a week. [bpfb_images] 2607_0-84000000-1541452344_images.jpeg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         24f4c892f7a68448e7efb6f62aa94111 Anais posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22350/#acomment-22382 Thu, 06 Sep 2018 18:37:59 +0000 How about \”Wanna go to a hotel?\” It worked wonders for a particularly bold man…who then proceeded to work wonders on me…

            In reply to - americanorgy posted an update in the group Pickup Lines Ok, this is a pickup line that would probably never work -- but if it did . . . I feel like I need to fuck you with concentration, with a focus on merging with you in the land of fuck. The neurons need to connect and fuck. I don’t want to forget this feeling. I want to keep the feeling of diving deeply and completely into your skin, into your cunt, into your mind. I want to fuck you and the world. I want to be your cock that you fuck the world with. I want to be your cunt, ready, wet, and aching to be filled by the fucking world. ]]>                         0aba66e3c8e576371bb8298c0abc7349 Anais posted an update in the group Erotic Photos: Upping the ante. The work: my body. http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22380/ Thu, 06 Sep 2018 01:32:24 +0000 Upping the ante. The work: my body.
            ]]>             0             33cda8d9ccb5a2c55cae49705124a526 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22373/#acomment-22374 Mon, 03 Sep 2018 19:24:45 +0000 I want adventure, strength, security, risk, off balance, life on fire, peace, calm, release, nurture, erotic passion, and chase.

            In reply to - Mallory posted an update in the group Your Experiments Inventory What do you like to experience in sex? ]]>                         71c2f6861fbc4cec2e0f527106fd2597 Mallory posted an update in the group Your Experiments: Inventory What do you like to experience in sex? http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22373/ Mon, 03 Sep 2018 18:46:39 +0000 Inventory

            What do you like to experience in sex?

            ]]>             1             816a4d85905d065dc6670b27b72a3be2 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/17084/#acomment-22352 Sun, 19 Aug 2018 15:27:04 +0000 Yes, I might have fully delineated all the sense in this line, but hope you have found enough of my postings here to know I am fully aware of all the senses. Did you read my Twelves of Christmas fun?

            In reply to - Mallory posted an update in the group Pickup Lines Is it true ...... love enters man through the eyes, woman through the ears? ]]>                         2e57d9ef961a71c2d65bc6ab0032b552 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22350/#acomment-22351 Sun, 19 Aug 2018 15:24:55 +0000 Oh that would definitely work. Based on what you wrote, I dare say you understand how rare and special it is to perpetuate the pick up, the chase. And in a relationship like that, your line would work well.

            In reply to - americanorgy posted an update in the group Pickup Lines Ok, this is a pickup line that would probably never work -- but if it did . . . I feel like I need to fuck you with concentration, with a focus on merging with you in the land of fuck. The neurons need to connect and fuck. I don’t want to forget this feeling. I want to keep the feeling of diving deeply and completely into your skin, into your cunt, into your mind. I want to fuck you and the world. I want to be your cock that you fuck the world with. I want to be your cunt, ready, wet, and aching to be filled by the fucking world. ]]>                         55fad1822ef58f3aca8bf12294fa6556 Anais and Julian Kay are now friends http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22341/ Thu, 16 Aug 2018 07:32:41 +0000 0 a99fc3330d5197b8995f8c42bbb92121 Anais posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/20011/#acomment-22317 Sat, 11 Aug 2018 02:17:59 +0000 xoxo Thank you, Luv

            In reply to - Mallory posted an update in the group Your Experiments WEIGH In on two thoughts from \"The International Experiment Experiment” 1. Is sexy forever? 2. Are you the type to push or are you the type wanting or needing to be pushed? ]]>                         1e4b6501f263dd2f7d1b08775e2fd39b Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/20011/#acomment-22316 Sat, 11 Aug 2018 01:15:02 +0000 @anais I am so very very happy to see you are back and well and as sexy as ever.

            In reply to - Mallory posted an update in the group Your Experiments WEIGH In on two thoughts from \"The International Experiment Experiment” 1. Is sexy forever? 2. Are you the type to push or are you the type wanting or needing to be pushed? ]]>                         a041f31e0d64df5e3fcdc953c4308e74 Anais posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/20011/#acomment-22315 Sat, 11 Aug 2018 01:09:57 +0000 Oh darling. How are you. So sorry I’ve been gone–a dread illness almost took me. I’m back, I had a woman tell the world in her feminist rant that when she wore her dress to the party, one barely covering her nips, men had the NERVE to stare, the “pigs,” she said. “I wear what I wear for *me* so I feel sexy and powerful. ” My reply was thus:…[Read more]

            In reply to - Mallory posted an update in the group Your Experiments WEIGH In on two thoughts from \"The International Experiment Experiment” 1. Is sexy forever? 2. Are you the type to push or are you the type wanting or needing to be pushed? ]]>                         ca690a7fd0fa382516c9bc99f51bd1e4 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22300/#acomment-22307 Wed, 08 Aug 2018 23:59:38 +0000 There certainly is! Wish there are subtitles!

            In reply to - americanorgy posted an update in the group Cinematic Sex There was something about Sylvia Kristol . . . [bpfb_video]https://youtu.be/tQo7t-Ne1Eg[/bpfb_video] ]]>                         fe82afd9c119b021206a4834c9c8022a Anais posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/18416/#acomment-22292 Mon, 06 Aug 2018 13:25:45 +0000 I\’ve read. Was it good for you? It was good for me, too. Off to work I go…
            xoA

            In reply to - ]]>                         971aa9cc1db30bdc8f844afb388479ba Anais and Mr. X are now friends http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22291/ Mon, 06 Aug 2018 13:15:10 +0000 0 328da84d61526d716b58f79e7f0f5031 Anais joined the group Experimental Books http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22290/ Mon, 06 Aug 2018 13:12:15 +0000 0 4ee97ca6f7ddb3eb08539bf585009374 Anais joined the group Sex & Music http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22289/ Mon, 06 Aug 2018 13:12:12 +0000 0 150d33061640221b40925535bd869e6f Anais joined the group Your Fantasies http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22287/ Mon, 06 Aug 2018 13:07:58 +0000 0 00ef8ca1575bca45ac8dc5f198e43433 Anais posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/18416/#acomment-22284 Mon, 06 Aug 2018 12:47:02 +0000 And release? You do feel a release when you write, I hope? Or…is it just fodder for a new erection…

            In reply to - ]]>                         e843ac577fdc8ad10cc7d8eabbda7898 Anais changed their profile picture http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22282/ Mon, 06 Aug 2018 12:10:33 +0000 0 ae1a6272369f9cf9cf01f85376c01fdb Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22250/#acomment-22254 Sat, 21 Jul 2018 16:41:22 +0000 Umm yeah

            In reply to - Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Photos Some women say so much with their eyes. [bpfb_images] 1082_0-22829300-1532124506_tumblr_p97d4z3ku91wguv2wo1_640.jpg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         7a9fd14b3aa8ba0c401d1dd9225b966f Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Photos: Some women say so much with their eyes. http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22250/ Fri, 20 Jul 2018 22:08:26 +0000 Some women say so much with their eyes.
            ]]>             1             00a1b9bdf0fce2c340241456dc8c2808 Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Photos: Um...what does she beckon? http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22224/ Sun, 24 Jun 2018 23:31:15 +0000 Um…what does she beckon?
            ]]>             0             03ac0efa875428f7973f97c172ab5f14 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22180/#acomment-22186 Fri, 25 May 2018 03:59:17 +0000 Welcome wolfcouple! I agree.

            In reply to - wolfcouple66 posted an update in the group Erotic Photos being new here and looking back at some of the posts, especially the one from Mallory on corsets!! absolutely yes!! anything that enhances and glorifies the female form is a definate yes! personally I find clothing that hides but briefly a woman\'s butt and pussy very erotic----a man\'s shirt for example. corsets do that and add to the curves. what\'s not to love? ]]>                         9ed702a47c310dd4d78b542c27e1fa54 Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Photos: "All breathing human passion far above, That leaves a heart […] http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/22041/ Sun, 01 Apr 2018 18:30:07 +0000 “All breathing human passion far above,
            That leaves a heart high-sorrowful and cloy’d,
            A burning forehead, and a parching tongue.”

            John Keats
            ]]>             0             c67f9359627e929e02750c9c31482f34 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21926/#acomment-21945 Mon, 26 Feb 2018 17:19:53 +0000 I think you are a man with very erotic fantasies!

            In reply to - JCWisc posted an update in the group Your Fantasies Hi, New to the forum. I have a couple of fantasies. Would love to hear your thoughts regarding them. Both fantasies start the same way. Women dresses up in sexy lingerie or fishnet, red lipstick, puts on perfum, high heels. Comes over to where I am and start making out. She then says she has something to take care of. Fantasy 1: She video calls me from her phone, shows me show she puts on a coat and walks to her car. She drives a few blocks away and stops the car on a street with low traffic. She opens up her coat just enough to show her breasts and pussy. She starts to masturbate and then uses a large dildo to make herself come. Fantasy 2: Same start as the other. THis time she wears a little masquerade mask. I have previously open up an account in one of those porn webcam sites. She logs into the website and starts broadcasting, I join into her broadcast. She starts getting request of what to do, she stands up and shows her body. She teases with nipple clamps, anal toys. She enjoys being looked at, being sexual. She takes money to do what others want her to do. She plays with the dildo and comes hard a few times. ]]>                         d342fe53a052aee9f28efa7a30622bda Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/20691/#acomment-21904 Wed, 31 Jan 2018 22:49:04 +0000 Thank you!

            In reply to - Mallory posted an update in the group Your Fantasies Oh Those Objects of Desire at the Workplace... A continuation of the original fantasy inspiration http://www.thesexexperiment.com/members/mal8899/activity/20295/ and because @lake said something so pretty , I wanted to plagiarize her. I knew that the warm hues of our needs would enter the hotel room, become intense colors we splatter across a sexual canvas that swirl us inexplicably together. The way our lips would meld and seal, sharing and immersing in our secrets, our suppressed desires. \"Yes, Jason, yes. Anything you want.\" I crane my neck to look back at you as I climb up on the edge of the bed. Your eyes bore into mine so deep; I can almost feel you inside me. My hands and knees, hot, sliding against the fluid bedding. My back arches to lift my ass higher, my cunt drips, drip, drip. I watch you loosen your tie, undo your buttons. Then you drop your shirt. I leap down then, and fall on my knees in front of you. \"Please, let me...\" I look up, pleading. I kneel all the way down, sitting on my legs, I remove your shoes. Then your socks, tucking them neatly into your shoes. \"Please, let me...\" I look up at you again. I move up to undo your belt, working the outside button, the inside clasp, the inside button. And they say women\'s clothes and lingerie are designed to tease a man? Finally, I pull apart the teeth of your zipper. Pushing down your pants, caressing your calves as I remove one pant leg, then the other. \"Please, let me....\" I look up while my hands find your hips; my palms rub against the soft layer. The single layer left. The single layer of mercerized cotton, its natural sheen enhanced and stretched and drenched. So much reference to a woman\'s wetness but a man’s wetness is hypnotic. It calls to a place inside my chest that fires off through my mind and pools between my legs. I lean up and suck your wetness right through the sheer fibers. The pointed tip of my tongue darts into your slit. Fine fibers and the fucking of my tongue. In and out of your cock. As the Chinese calls it, I start playing your flute. Working my mouth along your cock. Sucking, licking along your shaft while my fingers sneak under to rake the bare, taut skin of your balls. God, am I teasing you and torturing myself? My moans hum and vibrate against you. And I cannot wait another second. I yank down. My mouth ferociously taking all of you in. I swallow you whole and I choke as you jerk and push down against and into my throat. My face buried in you. Your cock buried in my mouth and throat. You possess me. I possess you. You are mine. \"Let me taste my cock on your lips and tongue,\" you say, just like that. My lips are on yours, throbbing and full. My tongue, completely yours. You don\'t have to suck; I seep into your mouth. Back home, they don\'t know. They have no idea. They have no idea at all what it is to count the multitudes of who you are, or what it is to dive the depth of your wildness. I reach down and circle the head of your cock with my thumb. Without moving my mouth from yours, my thumb pushes your wet slickness into your mouth. I reach down and smear you onto another finger. I keep feeding you your wetness. \"I want to say it out loud, Jason. I want the sex from your soul and your gut; I want it hard and violent. I want you to be the unbridled force that soothes every wound and rip free every fantasy.\" ]]>                         bc33608da9099288cfa54e075163b52d Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21864/#acomment-21879 Wed, 24 Jan 2018 22:43:27 +0000 ☺ I appreciate your reading.

            In reply to - Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Collaborations NICOLE – THE KNIFE\'S EDGE Finally, I relaxed my hands and took in a breath for a few seconds longer. Then I clamp the vein, slinging the tie around it, I pull at it. \"Clamp!\" Fisting my hands to steady them, I keep working around the swabs turning red, redder, fast, faster. \"Call for six more bags, NOW.\" No, no, no, no. \"Get the O negative.\" \"MORE Celox. Pack them in here!\" \"Terry, WIPE,\" I turn my face toward him to get the splatter blood from my visor. \"Why are the suctions so fucking loud?\" I try clamping more. The hissing of the machines rattling my brain. The battle continued: more stitches, more swabs, more hands in her abdomen, more blood, more instruments. More tension. More failure. \"Bolus her with more adrenaline! Keep it coming, watch the time.\" I look up at the numbers dropping, flashing, alarming. The blood loss relentless, as are my hands in cardiac compression. She is grey and waxy and all I can see are my hands pushing to pump her heart. The pool of blood expanding while the rest of my team shrink away. \"God damn it, Nicole. Call it. It\'s over.\" I can barely hear Jillian over the sound of my breathing. My arms come to a stop as I stare again at the flat line on the monitor. \"Time of death, 17:39,\" I declare. My body becomes rag doll like as Terry pull off my soaked gown to cover my scrubs with a clean one. \"Do you want me to call Alex for you?\" he asks. \"No,\" I shake my head, \"he\'s out of the country.\" He looks hard at me, squinted lines around his eyes deepening, before glancing at the door. \"I\'ve got it. You get out of here.\" I tell him and I walk out to tell the family. ============================== \"Nic, there you are. Terry texted me about what happened. How are you doing, the truth? Where are you?\" \"Hi. I\'m gonna fire his ass. I\'m okay. I\'m in the locker room. I\'ll leave for home in a few.\" \"I am getting the next flight home.\" \"NO, don\'t do that. I will be fine. You just landed, didn\'t you?\" \"Yeah, we\'re in a cab, headed to the hotel. I\'m coming home, Nic.\" \"Sweetheart, I just have to get through the night. You can\'t make it; the flight is at least 9 hours.\" \"Nic, I am so sorry. This was bad timing for me and Rachel to take this trip.\" \"Don\'t come home, Alex, just ...you guys just have... a good time. For me. I have to go, my car is here.\" \"Do whatever you have to do, Nic. Nickie, please.\" In his pleading moment, I could not continue and I push the hang up button. I curl tightly into the corner of the backseat, my heart racing, rapidly thudding against my chest, body trembling hard and I can\'t seem to draw air into my lungs. I wanted to feel the sharp edge of the knife, but not that of a #22 blade into my bronchi. I watch in my mind Alex and Rachel entering the Le Meurice, and the replay of the tie cutting through the wall of the vein, weakened by the infiltrating tumor, initiating the massive hemorrhage. I think this is the first time I actually accept Charles\' extended hand to help me out of the car and into our building. By his startled look, I think I really gripped him. \"Thanks, Charles, I am not feeling well.\" I say softly before getting into the elevator, willing myself to just make it up to our apartment. Kicking off my Birki\'s, I run to the bathroom at another wave of nausea. I picture him leaning Rachel over the hotel vanity. I dry heave into the sink. Tears burn and flood my eyes, I retch again while my stomach wrench violently. Nothing comes up. Nothing left of the breakfast Alex made me 15 hours ago. Breathe, Nicole, breathe. It is so cold in here. Why is it so cold? After I turn on the hot water to fill the tub, I drag myself to the kitchen to get coconut water and ginger candy. Stripped of the sweat soaked clothes, I lower myself into the tub. They tell you in medical school, that when you break the news to the family that your patient died, you are supposed to be as straightforward and succinct as possible. The first time I had to do this, my chief came with me. He said I had nerves of steel and that I was going to become a great surgeon because I was an iron pillar and yet I can give the family my humanity. Medical school teaches you to tell them the patient died and be as brief as possible about the facts surrounding the death. They tell you to be compassionate and then malpractice suits teach you to be unapologetic. But nobody teaches about the grieving process for the physician. Nobody told me that the only thing that works is the weight of Alex\'s body covering mine, and then I am not alone in my grief. The only thing that works is the sound of his mouth breathing against my ear, and then my crisis heart calms down to pace. I get out of the cooling water, shivering in the bath sheet. In Alex\'s closet, I dig out one of his many black t-shirts from the hamper. I put it on. I dig out a second one and put that on too. As my hand reach at the door knob, I see our bed and I see him in bed with Rachel in Paris. The plan was to give our very young woman a normative romantic experience. The plan was to simultaneously give me a lesson on edge retention of the knife. I retch again and pull the door shut, collapsing onto the bath sheet heap on the floor, wrapped in his t-shirts, surrounded only by the walls of his clothes. Unable to control the shaking or breathing, I reach for my cellphone. I wake up the next morning gasping so loud it sounded like I screamed. Arms immediately tighten around me from behind. I flip around. Adam captures both my hands and breathes against my face and hair. His warm body presses against mine, he lets go and reaches back with one hand to bring my head onto his chest. His fingers slowly stroking my hair. Stroking. Twisting softly.... brushing it away.......from my cheek....Stroking..... Twisting softly....around his.... ]]>                         6a448fe1b7bfc182627b90e567c6eb8d Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Collaborations: NICOLE – THE KNIFE'S EDGE Finally, I relaxed my hands a […] http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21864/ Fri, 19 Jan 2018 13:32:53 +0000 NICOLE – THE KNIFE’S EDGE

            Finally, I relaxed my hands and took in a breath for a few seconds longer. Then I clamp the vein, slinging the tie around it, I pull at it.

            “Clamp!”

            Fisting my hands to steady them, I keep working around the swabs turning red, redder, fast, faster.

            “Call for six more bags, NOW.”

            No, no, no, no.

            “Get t…[Read more]

            ]]>             1             518c33777144fee806ee46410b312298 Mallory posted an update in the group Your Experiments: 6:30am Conversation There you are, my little peach. Yes, […] http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21752/ Fri, 24 Nov 2017 03:30:28 +0000 6:30am Conversation

            There you are, my little peach.

            Yes, but
            Not a juicy peach
            Pretty hard
            The kind you hold in your hand
            And you want to smack
            To make it give
            Give in
            Surrender
            The kind that lures you to discover another fruit

            Of course…

            The one that truly holds the secret
            The secret you didn’t even know you pant for

            Oh.
            I did not…[Read more]

            ]]>             0             c15e757ffa049ed8644b8204a1be660d Mallory posted an update in the group Your Experiments: Thanksgiving Recipe Fill bathtub with water and lavender […] http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21751/ Fri, 24 Nov 2017 03:24:54 +0000 Thanksgiving Recipe

            Fill bathtub with water and lavender until scent permeates the room.

            Bring entire pumpkin pie from oven to cool on the bathroom vanity.

            Invite man into the tub.

            Lean back on him and have his arms and legs wrap around you.

            Erection guaranteed.

            ]]>             0             2036ae6323594c165a585660202203b2 Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Photos: Vote: thumbs up and down on Corsets? http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21750/ Fri, 24 Nov 2017 03:12:24 +0000 Vote: thumbs up and down on Corsets?
            ]]>             0             996f1a5edc717d55c439f77bc0b61516 Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Photos: Really nice.... stockings! http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21465/ Sat, 29 Jul 2017 10:10:31 +0000 Really nice…. stockings!
            ]]>             1             64ca75f9905dabd866af83e9038c7452 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21436/#acomment-21438 Sun, 02 Jul 2017 01:37:34 +0000 Oh YEAH.

            In reply to - Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Photos Just what I want to do for a long time. [bpfb_images] 1082_0-23734900-1498869027_tumblr_oqmoarvslq1uqlta6o1_500.gif [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         cc574b89a66c6714be1914df64d4ac2b Mallory posted an update in the group Erotic Photos: Just what I want to do for a long time. http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21436/ Sat, 01 Jul 2017 00:30:28 +0000 Just what I want to do for a long time.
            ]]>             1             c37419971548713d512feb6f699888da Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21406/#acomment-21411 Sun, 18 Jun 2017 09:58:01 +0000 The long path of seduction, the mounting anticipation of desire, the power of giving, the ownership of taking.

            In reply to - AdamNoah posted an update in the group Your Fantasies I love anal sex with women. There – I said it. I truly enjoy the preparation involved in getting ready for anal. I like beginning with cunnilingus with light fingering of the anus. Hell, that alone is a good time. After an orgasm or two there is a slow transition to deeper, slower fingering with plenty of lube. Finally, there is the slow and, hopefully, enjoyable transition to dick. Sadly, my experience with anal is quite limited. Twice, in fact, and it has been over 7 years since my last experience. My wife is not down with anal which is unsurprising. A National Survey of Sexual Health and Behavior (NSSHB) shows that only 12% of women in my age group (40-49) engage in anal sex. So why do I love anal sex? For my generation, it is rare and therefore it is somewhat a case of wanting what is forbidden. But it is also a bit of a power play, isn’t it? To me, it is all of this plus it is simply something different and exciting. What about the people in this community? Have you had anal? Do you enjoy it? Why do you suppose it isn’t as prevalent as other sexual behaviors? [bpfb_images] 186_0-77447600-1497750879_tumblr_lvla1bdkgy1qj9pc1o1_500.jpg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         75e34a0045770bae861804e4193985d1 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21406/#acomment-21409 Sun, 18 Jun 2017 02:23:21 +0000 I have had anal sex and yes I enjoy it.

            In reply to - AdamNoah posted an update in the group Your Fantasies I love anal sex with women. There – I said it. I truly enjoy the preparation involved in getting ready for anal. I like beginning with cunnilingus with light fingering of the anus. Hell, that alone is a good time. After an orgasm or two there is a slow transition to deeper, slower fingering with plenty of lube. Finally, there is the slow and, hopefully, enjoyable transition to dick. Sadly, my experience with anal is quite limited. Twice, in fact, and it has been over 7 years since my last experience. My wife is not down with anal which is unsurprising. A National Survey of Sexual Health and Behavior (NSSHB) shows that only 12% of women in my age group (40-49) engage in anal sex. So why do I love anal sex? For my generation, it is rare and therefore it is somewhat a case of wanting what is forbidden. But it is also a bit of a power play, isn’t it? To me, it is all of this plus it is simply something different and exciting. What about the people in this community? Have you had anal? Do you enjoy it? Why do you suppose it isn’t as prevalent as other sexual behaviors? [bpfb_images] 186_0-77447600-1497750879_tumblr_lvla1bdkgy1qj9pc1o1_500.jpg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         5e77fa4778f845419d977f36753605fe Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21406/#acomment-21407 Sun, 18 Jun 2017 02:12:30 +0000 I am uncertain of the statistics but venture to say that anal sex might be more prevalent with today’s younger, sexually active cohorts. Nevertheless, I believe there is quite a power play aspect to anal sex, as well as a significantly important intimacy that is at once deeply erotic, kinky, emotionally scary. Perhaps the only other thing more…[Read more]

            In reply to - AdamNoah posted an update in the group Your Fantasies I love anal sex with women. There – I said it. I truly enjoy the preparation involved in getting ready for anal. I like beginning with cunnilingus with light fingering of the anus. Hell, that alone is a good time. After an orgasm or two there is a slow transition to deeper, slower fingering with plenty of lube. Finally, there is the slow and, hopefully, enjoyable transition to dick. Sadly, my experience with anal is quite limited. Twice, in fact, and it has been over 7 years since my last experience. My wife is not down with anal which is unsurprising. A National Survey of Sexual Health and Behavior (NSSHB) shows that only 12% of women in my age group (40-49) engage in anal sex. So why do I love anal sex? For my generation, it is rare and therefore it is somewhat a case of wanting what is forbidden. But it is also a bit of a power play, isn’t it? To me, it is all of this plus it is simply something different and exciting. What about the people in this community? Have you had anal? Do you enjoy it? Why do you suppose it isn’t as prevalent as other sexual behaviors? [bpfb_images] 186_0-77447600-1497750879_tumblr_lvla1bdkgy1qj9pc1o1_500.jpg [/bpfb_images] ]]>                         270e6016e0fb5f8c4d0a329ab9ae6b51 Mallory posted a new activity comment http://www.thesexexperiment.com/activity/p/21365/#acomment-21366 Sun, 04 Jun 2017 23:47:16 +0000 I love both views!

            In reply to - AdamNoah posted an update in the group Erotic Photos [bpfb_images] 186_0-43057600-1496611901_blo2.jpg 186_0-58088700-1496611901_blog1.png [/bpfb_images] ]]>